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NOT NORMAL!

new people come into my life when the old ones leave. this is how it's always been, long before i was even invented. so why am i still surprised?

i am so glad to know that my world is so big. it's bigger than new york. it travels everyday without leaving home. it's bigger than a diary entry, a website, a picture in a magazine.

it's the rings around a tree trunk. it's as many stars there are in the sky. its the big puff of toxic chemical waste clouds on a cold cold night.

it's stong enought to walk a different way. it's strong enought to cry when i wanna, and its strong enought to stop.

i am
a series of starts and stops
a penny that keeps flipping
a word that u used to spell wrong, then right, then wrong again
not trying to win
not trying to lose

not a hidden vagenda
not famous for nothing, or anything
no new album, no new song, a big big voice with nothing to sing.

i have nothing you want.

not normal. normal.

when i feel like everything is hurty, when i feel like no one wants to listen, or when no one hears anything. when i feel like i want to be the notes and chords in a song and not a person at all

i remember something so cool that it beats everything. yes everything.

4:40 p.m. - 2005-02-19

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