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truth or die

isn't it weird how the moon just hangs in the sky like that? why won't it fall? i can't wait for that fucker to fall man. last night we went to visit ex girlfriend.

blank empty space of thought due to too many mixed feelings & emotions.

the 20 different stages of sorrow and introspection.
1. i wish the sky were the ocean and would carry me away and swallow me whole.
2. i saw the constellations spell out forwarnings but i ignored them.
3. life experience builds character.
4. i like to put myself in challanging situations.
5. i am so glad i am who i am.
6. i wonder if you love me and i mean really love me for who i am or realize how good u got it.
7. my body is built up of all backbone and solid lego-like pieces. i don't break as easy as u think.
8. i wanted to hate you.
9. i couldn't drink u in enough. the way you wore your clothes, stood around, moved your hands and the way you talked.
10.guilt will take u down many roads and they are all sad and full of darkness.
11. sometimes ego is a disease you cannot escape.
12. i am doing the best i can.
13. i felt myself cancelling out. i became a paper plate of thought, retaining nothing and not even caring at all.
14. i am lucky to have comfort and sometimes forget it and sometimes wonder why.
15. i get it now.
16. i am trying not to say anything mean, or to think mean thoughts.
17. i will never let you or anyone else ever feel sorry for me.
18. i don't know what the duties of empathy entail, but i realize it is something i should ask someone about.
19. toxic chemical clouds in the sky at night over the new jersey turnpike are fucking majestic dude.
20.

6:42 p.m. - 2005-01-18

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