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group therapy

by not being honest about certain situations, i am not being true to myself. i always have such a good time trying on someone else�s clothes. �i�m having such a good time�

�i don�t care about anything.�

�it�s cool, it�s cool.�

�fuck everyone.�

it�s not how i feel and it�s not the truth. once i start avoiding the truth, i start becoming the person i dont wanna be. and if that�s not what you wanna hear than i�m sorry. and if you wanna fuck the world that�s cool but guess what? the world won�t fuck you back.

i�m not sure if i like people who only care about themselves. it�s really boring and it�s kinda really so obvious that you are so scared of anything that�s beyond your control.

i am not into being everything for everyone. sometimes i�m not funny. sometimes i�m in a bad mood. oh but dont worry cuz i wont take out on you.

i dont wanna be next on the list, but things are getting really weird. i�m so rad that i cant pretend to act one way and think another.

sorry that thats soooo scary. sorry its soooo uncomfortable. sorry i�m trying not be the worst person ever.

i�m gonna shut down. i�m gonna recompute the situation like i�m a total fucking human robot because you flip my switch and program me to be yours 4 ever it will work.

i am more scared of being stupid than of being honest.

my group therapy group is changing leaders now. the doctors are switching and everyone is gettin real anxious to see whats gonna happen. if i don�t like the new doctor, i�m leaving the group. sowwiiee.

12:13 a.m. - 2004-08-24

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