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everybody wants one

i dont know if its just cuz nyc has been hanging out with his ex girl, maybe getting back together, etc, but it makes me crushed out even harder a little bit, which is predictable i suppose, but the truth for right now. i really didnt want him to leave tonight, not just because i like flirting with him, but because i just like having him around in general. the way we interact or dont interact for hours. whatever he does or needs to do for himself, as he knows, i would support in any way. even if i was jealous or whatever. its his life he can do what he wants.

but its gonna be a sad day when i stop getting those phone calls from him. when he stops waking me at 1am or 1pm. the time zones are gonna be all kinds of fucked up. i'm gonna miss that eastern time.

i guess everyone is just looking for someone to love them and hate them simaltanously. spell chek? what?

i guess everyone knows or thinks or wants to get their asses kicked around a little, balls busted, all that. just a little bit all the time. mean folks. everybody wants one. i want one too.

i have a text message crush on diet coke. he writes i think your cute. i write u r 2. its an honor. its a dangerous angel. love is a dangerous angel. love is a battlefield, life is a larf. feelings are chuckles and gossips are giggles.

feelings are chuckles and friendships are fuckles. what? are you done yet?

1:46 a.m. - 2004-05-15

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