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i'm rubber i'm glue

today i did a bunch of work. i should feel good about it. i do.

i know what's really bringing me down. and i know i should just suck it uo and go to a meeting.

V is awesome. he really is top notch. even though he seems crazy and flaky and all that, he's actually really sensitive and smart and i truly love him.

ok, here's a list. things i love right now: champ, riding bikes, hamburgers, bourban, new bra, vincent, smoking, sex dreams, tattoos, heels, necking, dj-ing, playing cards.

things i hate right now: period, magazines, too coolness, certain people, new york city sort of,feeling like i haven't accomplished anything, crushes, retarts.

i'm sure there is more but who cares.

i had the craziest sex dream last night starring G, but it was unusually good. we were driving cross country, more like fucking cross country. and there was no kissing or anything, just really fun sex. and we went to a wedding, i was a bridesmade, and he fucked me in my bridesmaid dress, which is kinda really hot. but enough of that.

i have work tomorrow, i know maybe i shouldn't go out tonight. there are a lot of things that i shouldn't do, but i do them anyway. i wanna be a superhero.

i wanna be both rubber and glue. or maybe just velcro. and he would be velcro too. and we would just stick to each other. oh no wait, i'm thinking of magnets.

9:53 p.m. - 2002-07-01

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