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let's get electric
last night was awesome. went to see ted leo and he blew me away. plays indie rock, which usually annoys me, but he plays it with the passion and intensity of someone like iggy pop. he spazzes out all over the place and you almost forget that the music is supposed to be...tame. after that i bolted over to spa to see bedroom productions, and my timing couldn't have been more perfect. as soon as i walked in they started rocking, and once i started dancing i just couldn't stop. me and my pals, all lined up like the ultimate dance force that we are. it rocked. B asked me to audition for her feature length movie--for the lead. i cant say that i can actually act, i mean, i dont really know. i wonder if it's something i can practice and get good at (in the next 2 weeks) or if it is just something that comes natutrally to some people. i mean, kids go to school for this kind of shit. i dont know, i guess i can try my best and just accept it if i'm no good at it. i think maybe i can pull it off tho. it would be awesome to be in a movie. it would be, possibly, ideal. spoke to G about work. he said that i'm still learning to do things here and he is right. he said that interns usually dont get hired until they've been here a year. what i need to do is get another job, really. it's either i quit vice entirely and look for a full time (ugh) or stay here and get a p/t retail thingy which is the better option. after 90 days. this is my deadline. thats fair, right? i've been really bad about: calling people back, getting shit i need for champ. she needs a new toy and a new litter box. wait, now that i think about it, i need a new toy and a new litter box too. D has been so busy and tired lately and there is nothing i can do about it. i feel like he's getting so comfortable with me, or rather, used to me. the way i get with people, with boys. you just want them in your bed. even when your not there. i'm torn. i want to be there, but i have a hard time sleeping when i'm there. i dont want to be just a warm body all the time. i like to be a warm body in motion too. i'm sure some kind of routine will set in. i'm not sure if that's a good thing. i haven't decided yet. boys have always been my second biggest addiction. always, in this order: drugs, boys. they went hand in hand forever. drugs because of boys/boys because of drugs. you get the idea. take away drugs and what do i have. obsession, desire, craving, insanity. except boys wont kill me. well, i would hope not anyway. anthems: ted leo, bob dylan, nwa, duran duran
2:06 p.m. - 2002-04-11
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