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another thing about heroin

before i forget about it, i had another relapse dream last night.

i was in my apartment, which was surprisingly very clean. i'd go as far as to say immaculate. i was with josh and i had bought one bag and he had bought one. he cooked up half the bag for me and shot me up, just like old times. except the dope was terrible! the worst. i felt pretty much nothing from a half a bag. i told him i wanted to do the other half and he was like, "you'll regret that decision later when have nothing, and dont ask me for any" (just like old times) and i agreed and decided to save the other half.

immediatly after getting high i called TR and told him i was high. i told him, "guess who's starting her day count over?" i was pissed that i had lost all my time over such shitty dope. i also think i wanted to get high with T, but i dont think he wanted to. i dont know. not too interesting, but i still feel weird about it.

2:37 p.m. - 2002-04-11

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