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chubby chaser

i dont know whats wrong with me, or rather, maybe i do know exactly whats wrong with me and maybe thats why the anxiety is at an all time high.

the new yorker, the new york times. and i'm the post. i see you everywhere, in everything. everything about new york is you. new york, new york, new york. who put those 2 words together and why do they look so different written down than they do in my head.

everyday i feel like i'm getting an ulcer. an ulcer the size of new york. its pretty small, but its like a hard little rock and if you throw it at the right angle and the right distance, it can kill someone.

your also so ugly sometimes. new york. so ugly, so belligerent and addidicted and everything fits you weird. but i love that. i want to fix you up. i know i can. i know you would change for me. i know you like me too. the way you cant stop looking at me, and the way

i cant stop imagining you in the future, all smart and grounded. i cant wait until your tide comes in, because you think you are so smart, and you are, but you dont get off that easy. new york, i can read you. i can maybe leave naked shivering in a corner because your words say one thing, but your eyes give away everything else. that is so fucking corny.

i cant stop memorizing your phone number. who else has this disease? the saving disease? the rescue me disease? the i want to change you and i know you'll let me disease.

new york. you think your so fucking complicated. you are so not. your just a city, and there are a million cities. you think your so cool because your new york. but new york, your not even from new york. your from england, and thats even gayer than california.

who would have guessed that new york was such a fag?

who would have guessed that the world has a fat fetish, the the world is a chubby chaser. the idea of you being someone else has me reeling today.

its totally fucked.

2:38 p.m. - 2004-04-13

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