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you better think about it baby

dear diary

my dad thinks he's late, but the rest of the world is just early. he read my diary?! now i really feel like all those other 14 year old girls who write in diaryland. he's extremely paranoid and it scares me. scares me away. who wants to read their daughter's diary? that's just weird.

do you wanna know what i did last night? fucked G. it was okay. he's super hot but he was very very very drunk and i dont know what that says about me. regardless, it was fun. slept a bit too late today. wish that i knew how to talk to G. i dont know why i feel slightly intimidated by him, because he's not so quick. wonder if he gets laid a lot. wonder if he even remembers anything, or even cares.

i dont activly feel like i hate myself but i've been kinda slutty lately. yes, its totally fun. J said that if i want to fall in love i should try not sleeping with the person right away. its a novel idea.

except then maybe you fall in love, and maybe the person doesn't fall in love with you back. then what? you die.

or you want to.

i had a weird dream last night.

9:22 p.m. - 2002-06-28

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