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under the big black sun

dude, L.A. is filled with fucking pussies! i can't believe i am here and i can't leave until TUESDAY. all flights are booked, otherwise there's like, 10 layovers n whatnot.

peter's in a coma i know i know its really serious.

now no friends can see him for a week. a fuckin week. his mom was totally weird. she was like, "they want us to stay positive, but i really don't think he;s goin to wake up"----what the fuck???? his MOM said that. what mom says that? he is totally going to wake up. when i was talking to him his head moved twice and his mouth moved. they dont want us to see him because he gets overly stimulated. but his in there. i know he is.

i guess when he wakes up, he's gonna talk weird and stuff. may not be able to read. this is a kid who just took the MCATs.

he took crystal and oxycontin. the truth is, he probably thought he was gonna have a reallllly fun night. probs thought he was gonna feel real good. if i were with him, maybe i would have done the same thing.

i guess i thought that by coming here, he would wake up. i thought he'd be up by now. day 5? day 6?

i am stuck in LA. no car. no really good friends. eliza is great tho. saw johnson, that was good. i miss my block, my boyfriend, my cats, my way around.

i fucking hate LA. this always happens. i always forget that there is nothing to do and no people to see because everyone hides in their cars and wakes up early to go "hiking".

"but hiking is different than walking"

i want home.

7:53 p.m. - 2004-06-19

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