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my nerves are jangled because of this weekend. part of it really has to do with my dad, and his interacting with cindy emily and carrie. he's just such a vibe-harsher. and cindy is such a diva. and then entertaining a million people, having to make sure everyone's happy.

but i dont need to do that, really. i cant control that i'm not responsible for that.

its hard to accept though.

i wish i was a zen master. would nothing ever bother me then?

i hope cindy doesn't diva out.

i hope carrie doesn't get all judgy.

i hope gavin doesn't whine.

i hope jordan has fun.

i hope people cook for me cuz i am hellza broke.

fuck. i hope i get work next week.

i hope its hot enough to go swimming.

i had coffee with ben yesterday which was uneventful. i think he just needs friends. i hate talking about writing, its sooooooo boring. i made him get this book of poetry at st marks books. then we got hot dogs to bring home to our relationships. he had a band aid on his face, which he said was from a cut but everone says that when its really from zit. he's so blake from jawbreaker and i dont mean that as a good thing. i guess i just think he looks like blake from jawbreaker. too san fran. he has tattoo's behind his ears. gross!

1:24 p.m. - 2004-05-27

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