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sub-zero to hero

brendan sexton the III was really good today. i'm glad i went to that meeting. i feel like the program is starting to get very real for me, like yeah the first year was a gift and all that, and now its just getting crazy.

lust, envy, sloth, greed, pride, vanity, and whatever i forgot the last. but there are so many more. rage? is that one? i am totally living in at least one of those everyday and right now its feeling really good.

i didnt want to come back from miami, sort of. i wanted to stay on the phone forever. i never knew the phone could be so much fun. i never liked the phone, now i cant get enough.

its better than meeting up ay some stupid bar. its better than trying to figure out what outfit to wear. its better than having to be scared, and watch the clock, and have to go places and do things and wait for people to come home.

i kinda wanna cancel my therapy tomorrow. only because i'm not in the mood to tell my secrets.

i wanna read you my diary. i want to write down funny things, gay song lyrics.

they mean so much to me, like a birthday or a pretty veiw.

2:34 p.m. - 2004-05-03

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