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i met a new boy who doesn't drink or do drugs and i really like him and i relapsed but not because of him and i really dont feel guilty about it or anything i just dont think i was ready to surreneder completly or hand my will over to god or whatever and to be honest i just dont think i was ready to quit everything FOREVER and i know it's not forever but 'just for today' but we all know that really means forever. i didn't drink because i wanted to escape and i dont want to DIE or ESCAPE. there is no reason, its just cuz. i also smoked weed. yum. it doesnt mean i am gonna go all out and start shooting up in again, in fact, i really dont want to go back there at all. will i? just for today i wont. FUCK YOU! i do feel weird about the following things: terry, suroosh, my committment, beata. my new boy is really top notch i think. he's a lot of things, but retarded he is not. well, only in the best way. here is my one word review: steven walsh 8 1/2 23 year old cute skater boy lives with parents in queens -aces-
2:50 a.m. - 2002-06-18
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